Tuesday, March 06, 2007

I love you

When we met, we fell deeply in love. We said we could go to the ends of the earth for each other and we meant it. I walked around all radiant, because finally I had found my one true love. People had misgivings, parents were worried. Why on earth did you have to fall for someone a world apart? It never works out, it can't be love, its for material gain, what didn't they say?

In spite of that we went ahead. Our wedding day was the happiest day of my life. You said to me a few months before we got married, as we discussed problems that could come our way "the problems will probably come where we least expect them". You couldn't have known how right you were.

Somewhere along the line we stopped communicating. We knew we loved the other person, but were no longer sure about how they felt towards us. The voices kept getting louder - get rid of her, he is no use to you. We spent more time fighting than we did having fun. You placed ice cold walls around you heart and kept me out. I started to act out, to try and provoke a reaction from you. You withdrew even further.

We got to a point where we decided separation was the only option. We sadly gave in "everyone was right, such relationships do not work afterall". I was shattered, went about my life like a zombie. I loved you more than life itself, yet I could not continue being the only one working at this relationship. Cultural differences had not helped matters. I would say one thing, you would hear something else. You would say something and I would understand it differently.

Both stubborn as bulls, neither would give an inch, I would thaw and you'd be frozen, and then you'd thaw and I'd be frozen. I lived to receive your calls, yet I was ice cold most times when I answered the phone.

Finally, I started to pray. When I met you, you fit completely the description I had written in church about the Man I wanted to marry, right up to the huggable part. I wondered now, whose voice I had heard. You could not have been meant for me if it turned this way. I had no way of knowing you were going through the same things I was. I knew that the faults were not all on your side, I can be difficult to live with. It had been a difficult time for us both, with settling down and trying to start a new life together.

Then finally, you said the thing I had been waiting to hear - you said you remembered again why it was Me you married and no one else. You said, "let's try again". I was so shocked that I could not react. The one thing I had given up hope upon was happening.

I realised that this was a refining process. I will never take you for granted again. I hope you won't me as well. I am so greatful to God I received back the man I married.

I love you my Huggy bear, I pledge my life to you anew. You make me complete, I could never be the person I am without you by my side.

I love you.


Nilla said...

Really deep. It started out sad, but ended sweetly.

Prayers do work.

Glad things are rosy for you now :-)

Have a wonderful day.

April said...

This is beautiful Marin. I wish you both all the very best.

Love conquers all!

bdon said...

Very touching Marin, and reminiscent of what I have also been through. All the best!

Jaycee said...

You made me laugh and almost cry at the same time...lol.

Love overcomes all...(*sigh*)...arrrrrrggggh. This was so good...I felt like it was happening to me...lol.

Marin said...

@nilla, thanks girl, I could not have forseen such an ending!

@april, thanks a lot for the wishes. Love does conquer all!

@bdon, thank you. I am glad things also worked out for you.

@jaycee, thank you for your comment. Now I'm grateful for everything thaqt happened, but believe me, when I did not know it would turn out like it did, it wasn't funny.

We like to joke and say our story is like a really bad movie, the ending is so unrealistic - thank God that he specialises in the "unrealistic"!

lala said...

Hey ... that was so sweet. Goodluck with your love.

londonnaijachic said...

awwwwwh! This made me cry.Am so glad you guys are starting afresh and able to work on your differences cuz u can't get rid of them but you can learn how to accomodate one another.

Nice post girl!

Olawunmi said...

you give me hope. you tell my sceptical, cynical yet hopelessly romanitic, unrepentantly-single self that people can work things out afterall. i pray that you both make it work. you are in my thoughts.

thank you for sharing this.

Alma said...

awwwwwwwwww. that was so inspiring.
especially the world apart section. see, i have found my man who fits my list that i gave to God and we've been together for 4 years now and its long distance, by God's grace, the love is stronger than it ever was, but it can be difficult sometimes.
and the whole, you live to get his calls but when you pick up the phone you're cold, i can so relate with.
thanks for sharing!

Shola said...

really inspiring! changes do happen when we dont give up on love.

Marin said...

Thank you all for your very nice comments and best wishes.

Alma, long distance is really hard!!!Best of luck to you guys.

Olawunmi, with love, one can work almost anything out. Its hard work though, but it is worth it!

Refinedone said...


That is marriage for you...Love is not always enough...there comes the work of HOPE!
when is all looks one way.. not to loose hope...cos when that goes.. it is nothing but the grace of God can bring you two back...

...so keep hope alive and the flames of love will burn an holdfast.
(many more bends, up's and downs to come in this journey called marriage) :)

bimbylads said...

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww... beautiful post.. i like yr blog... !! thank God you did not loose your man! thank God!

Marin said...

Thanks Refinedone and Bimbylads, for your comments. I am so glad to have been able to share this and not the opposite with you all!!!!

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